Past love

I have loved and hated then loved again. I have done so many things in the past, made a lot of relationship mistakes. What do you expect from someone who truly loves? I was obsessed and a jealous freak. All I can think of was myself. I wanted to be happy in my relationship, I needed to feel at ease. I wanted to be the only person he loves but I was making a lot of mistakes by believing that he can love me alone.